Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep

Things are tough, and as I get older, things are getting tougher.  It could be about monetary reasons, professional growth, personal life dilemma, or the lack of self-esteem because of age.

If I am to regret some things in my life, previous years counted, it is the inability to save for my present life. I did save some money, but in years of saving came a problem that siphoned more than what I had, prompting me to start all over again.  There were mistakes made, and when I trusted and appealed to pity at all times, I ended up losing.

I was happy being an educator for a long time until now.  It was only then that I thought of improving myself by moving on, changing my career path, or taking more challenges than usual.  However, certain unfavorable situations hinder my growth career-wise. At this time, I tried, I did, and I failed.

While I grow older, albeit wiser, my face can no longer hide the charm of my youth.  I am old, and I often hear this from people around me.  Though I still work full-time and even spend extra hours working during the weekends, I am always tired, not to mention how I struggle with the weather that gives me headaches.

I was happy once, twice but when I lost almost all, I always thought that my life now is a monotonous circle of stresses and disappointments.  At present, all I long for is a long, long one either to rest my weary body or to lay me down to sleep… for good.